remember this?

clever little julie goldman photoshopped this picture way back when we thought we'd maybe possibly get even close to possibly maybe having those bodies. wait... what, you say?? those are not really your bodies??

anyway, so i've re-entered the world of weight watchers since i haven't quite made it to realizing my TANKINI DREAMS. this time i feel differently about it. we have the same group leader, the one who i used to feel was a psycho cheerleader who really couldn't be paid enough to really give two shits about me. but, i think she might've gotten a raise because i now find her endearing with her dimples and skirt suits and long island jewish accent. this time there's no blaming her for my leaving.

but this time i'm really going to try not to leave.

to tell you the truth, i'm not even really sticking to the WW diet but i am eating more mindfully. so that's a start. and so far it's given me a little bit of my face back-- some of my roundness has taken leave. so it may just be a few pounds but every pound has it's own special power.

this is something that i need to remind myself of. every pound leads to the next pound and soon i should be seeing little changes here and there. kind of fun if you think about it.

i just have to do it.

i did meet a friend this time, since i was by myself as julie will not go to WW with me. it's so much easier when you have a support group within the support group, even if it's just a little group of two.

i was on the phone with my mom today and we came up with my new mantra.

lose weight
feel great
find a mate
procreate

i fucking love it.

i'm breaking a fever right now and sweating my tetas off. hopefully i'll sweat off a few ounces while i'm at it.

xo rach